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Noahie Valk
Welcome! This is where you can find my most up-to-date writings. Divided into two sections. 1) Cogito: a diary and 2) IOKTIKN: a collection of standalone essays and short stories.
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Something I've thought about a few times before: I'm not sure how people perceive others' perceptions of reality (or realities for all we know). In other words, I am skeptical of a universal theory of mind concept. I think it's seldom...
I've been dealing with feelings of despair yet again. For me, it's been hard to distinguish between what outcomes of my life were a result of poor decision-making and what outcomes were a result of my mental illness. I look at my life...
I've been doing well lately. I mean, I'm not doing anything extremely major. But I feel better because I've been having a better experience with getting basic chores done and staying clean and taking care of myself. I've also been...
One thing that's been on my mind recently is the term "normie." I started thinking about it because a few friends would talk about their grievances in work or school, saying that they were constantly surrounded by normies. This is...
So things have been coming back up the back half of this week. I feel fortunate that I have more energy and don't have the same cloud as usual looming over me. An interesting thing happened yesterday: I was at a Starbucks when I saw a...
It's been a while since I've written anything here, and there a few reasons for that. First, I got depressed again. I thought I had gotten over my last episode but was only okay for like a few days but then I spiraled again into another...
Over the last 24 to 36 hours or so, I've had a major uptick in mood. I remember I had a healing sort of dream where I got my feelings out to some characters from my dreams and weirdly enough, I woke up the next morning feeling better. It...
This is a rewrite of an old story I wrote back in 2020 and was initially published on Substack. This isn't a major rewrite—just some revisions to make it flow better and have a bit more logic to it. I hope you enjoy! “Go into the woods...
I haven't come here to write in a while because I've been extremely tired and depressed. Over the last week or so, I've spent most of my time asleep. As I am writing this entry, my fatigue persists. It's been rather frustrating dealing...
So I've been going back to the gym lately and I think I hit a wall today. I was just too tired to go, and I don't enjoy how I don't seem to have the capacity for many things in life anymore. My body is also really sore and honestly I...
I've been feeling better today. I was able to go to the gym and do my laundry. Overall, I feel like I'm out of depression once again. Now I wouldn't necessarily say that I'm happy, but I at least don't have any of the destructive looming...
I've been having a greater desire to escape my head lately. I've done better at cutting out addictions and other escapist tendencies in my life as of late because I know that it's not good for me, but the urge to go back to those things...
I don't know what's been going on, but I've been on a self-deprecation kick over the last 24 to 36 hours. I haven't really done much externally to show this, but internally it's been quite the war. I seem to have this bad habit of...
I've been feeling rather prolific this last week or so, but that's clearly due to the continued novelty of my new workflow. I had to switch from nano to micro today because I couldn't do proper text wrapping in nano, which is completely...
I felt a brief pause before starting this entry today. I have this desire to try and maintain novelty with my thoughts, so I don't want to harp on the same thoughts over and over again in sequence between entries. Unfortunately, though,...