Days without turning off site blockers: 9 Finally well enough to get back to logging. Illness + no phone to self medicate + isolation = disaster. I realised that I am depressed & burnt out, so I went and got some (free) help.

I spent last night until daybreak whimpering about everything from the state of the world to the bruised part of my back from coughing (I'm sick) to how ugly I am. I told my family for the hundreth time that I'm not doing well. This time, I pointedly expressed that I was unhappy. "Unhappy" isn't enough of a word to...

Days without turning off site blockers: 5 Man (still) down! Nothing of note has happened, I've been letting my mind wander all day so here's a list of my favourite professors: PhD student who is either constantly sleep deprived or high Hard-ass, extremely cultured Ukrainian lady Mischievous guy who can read minds

Days without turning off site blockers: 4 Day 10 already! ... And I'm coming down with something. I don't know how bad it will be, but hopefully not bad enough that I won't be able to log. I've just been puttering along and listening to this song on loop on my mp3 player. My mp3 player. I got it for $20 on Aliexpress.

Days without turning off site blockers: 3 I'm a little under the weather, but I pulled through, and I finished my mitts!

Days without turning off site blockers: 2 Doing a digital detox feels futile if there is nothing occupying my mind. I had a good day today, the detox part is actually happening. But it still feels like I am waiting for the day to be over so I can hop online. Having the TV on or using my mp3 player soothes the...

Days without turning off site blockers: 1 Took a long, long walk and felt a lot better. Also went to the library to take out three books. Reading is very calming for me. It also helps me be more comfortable with being bored & letting my mind wander.

Days without turning off site blockers: 0 Slept better last night. First half of the day was riddled with anxiety and brain fog. Wanted to go out on the down, but it was a holiday ergo, no transit. Journaling helped lift the fog. I realise I use nostalgic media to self medicate when I'm feeling down. Not sure what...

Days without turning off site blockers: 0 I'm in a slump. Today was the first 'official' day of my break and I spent most of it doing some lousy cleaning and crocheting (I finished one of my mitts!). I'm starting to think this is an issue with ups and downs in sleep & diet.

Days without turning off site blockers: 2 Trying to get used to being bored. It is harder than it sounds! Someone gifted me some navy yarn (my favourite color), so I'm using to make mitts.

I hate going to church. My main forms of protest are oversleeping (works 80% of the time), taking absurdly long to do my makeup & hair and refusing to sing. I'm not a part of a "fire and brimstone" denomination. I don't even think I would be punished for not believing in God. The horror comes from thier desire to...

Days without turning off site blockers: 1 Spent some time moping about and doom scrolling at the end of the day, unfortunately. Should have just spaced out on the couch instead. Went to an art museum and saw this really great exhibit. It was different, very inspiring. Didn't get to pick up a notebook either,...