Suzy, It's Sunday lunchtime. I've been writing utter rubbish all day. Trying to batter my brain into essay writing action with coffee. Now I am shaky and sick. I wanted to text you but you left your phone on the bed and Mike left his bag with phone in the kitchen. Now I feel unreasonably jealous, inadequate and...

So this is what it has come to. I went into this, my initial trimester of study, in the midst of a twisted and broken relationship. I finished yesterday. Nothing has changed. I just put my feelings on pause for, how long? Three and a half months. Studying has kept me busier and more purposeful than I have ever been....

He wants me to build him that thing, you know, only different. "You know what I want". I know what I think you want. That is what I build. It is not what my customer wanted. I ask my customer to be more specific. My customer specifies what he does not want. I remove the bits he does not want. It is still not what my...

Shit, pain and filthy fury. Fury is an ugly filthy monster. I pretend my fury does not exist. I ignore it, down inside my dark recesses but today it got out. My calm exterior hid the boiling fury inside me. I casually hurt the one most dear to me. When the damage was done my son hated me and so did I. Now I have to...

Dear Spike, I am not sure you will read this. This is me, Ben. We grew up together. Your mum does not think you will remember anything. You cannot forget this and I have to tell you. You need to know everything. We were just little boys when we met. You held onto your Mums leg and hid your face in her purple skirt...

How do I go about filling three pages of foolscap from within a text editor? Do I write it longhand count the words and compare it the same number of words on the screen? I'm not sure if it matters. I do not want to write it longhand. I'd prefer to type it. I understand our brains work differently around the process...

Where are we going with this? I don't know it all started because Agrippa, Choppy and I love making up stories with each other. I thought we could brainstorm some ideas. Mixed in with reality and random ideas from us, spat out here (nothing has come of it) ---> From Me: Spike has possible brain damage, I have to...

I have a sore eye. Actually they are both sore one is worse. Red and inflamed, I'm sure they don't look too good. The dust from the tree bark I was shovelling today is the culprit. That and the dry wind and sun. I should go to sleep and rest my sore eyes. I cannot sleep though. I returned from my first fire brigade...

Dear Z, Thank you so much for your package, it is lovely and I shall treasure it. You surprised me. I felt you were exactly the person I remembered but the lens of time and the walls of distance left me ignorant of the truth. I feel so stupid that I misjudged you and my errant timing has led us down different paths....

Last Post from Thailand. The human powered pedal thing in Thailand are next level Our first night in Chiang Mai was pretty stressful but the rest of our trip has been awesome. Before going home we will travel down south to learn how to SCUBA dive. I have been sending pictures of the bikes to Cheri. She wrote back,...

A computer shop in Chiang Mai Riding around Northern Chiang Mai earlier today I passed this and another of my interests was piqued. I woke the owner up, I guess he doesn't get much business - he spoke a little english and said that We Open Source people should stick together and share the knowledge . He looked a bit...

At the gym Ev and I went to, there's a dog called Bum. Bum is on one of the videos. He was much like this dog which we saw in town one day. Kind of ugly but proud of it. Bum is one of the dogs that lives at Lanna Muay Thai. Like most Thai dogs, Bum has the wonderful ability to lay around and lick his balls all day....